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Fateful Waiting
At least I'm not visiting seedy Manhattan public restrooms in the middle of the night.
What I'm Really Up To Trying to capture every little nuance of experience. Only Time Will Tell I've always been obsessive-compulsive Seven Film Blurb What Dreams May Come, The Big Time, Out of Sight, Scorpio, Hi, Mom, Harlem Nights, The Lost World Social Robots Is life really so much better now? Erratum Vampirizing the importance of more important people. Four Movie Blurb Ruby, Pearl Harbor, Life As A House, College Confidential. Such An Enlightened Person For every projection there is a counterprojection. An E-Mail Response Being nice to criticism. Sports Grammar Well, whattaya expect? Economic Hurt What hurts inside is outwardly revealed. Someone I Am Not I love my depression like a Russian loves his misery. A Self-Defined Success or Failure Two sides of the same one-sided coin. An Ineluctable Motive Wanting to do everything. The Art of Criticism and Response Can't we all just get along? A Complex Methodology Trying to renew my writing motive. The Past Comes Back To Haunt Us Is this true? A Universe Within Another shard of light. Taxation Without Moral Representation Jefferson was right. It Could Happen Terrorists probe the world stage for their next act. The Net Effect Protecting our collective asses. Old Floating Cloud A short book review. Self-Definition Re-assigning identity to a different fiction. Sitting Out In The Weather Last minute vacation plans. Kibitzers I choose not to play the game. Jailbait Participating in a local tv production Yankee Imperialism It's not your father's Pontiac. Fighting back in the best way they know how. A metaphor for what is wrong in America today. Mania is a Terrible Thing to Waste There's a positive side to bipolar disorder. Dictated by the Season A manic month promoting spontaneous decisions. Five Film Blurb K-PAX, Predator 2, Come Back to the Five and Dime, Jimmie Dean, Jiummie Dean, Pure Country, Maverick Just Fooling Myself Is ambition really ambition if you have to force yourself to be it? Just a Little Bit of News Further thoughts on canceling the cable. Defending Freedom A brief criticism of John Danforth McCarthy Ashcroft and his phony cronies. Overextension How's this for a classic denial? Respect and Disrespect Politicians are the lowest form of human life. The World is not Fair The Presidency is a power trip. Providence Takes a Hand Doing the minimum and just getting by. Another Day I'm a such a pig. Novel Writing Just an idea. Reforming the System It's like playing Russian Roulette with a fully loaded revolver. A Zen Attitude Another past posting. If only I were this noble now. So That You Know Trying to catch up old pastiche additions that got left behind several years ago. The Way of the World I'm not responsible. A Short Career in Law Enforcement A new story Occupying My Mind I don't know how fair and balanced I can be with this kind of thing going on. Needy A short insight. Old Young Kids Another grammar entry. Two film Blurb The Next Best Thing and Money Train. Snuggling Up in Bed with You I hope you're a good-looking, soft and sensual woman. A Winter Attitude or A Nasty Habit An attempt to combat the social art of other-definition. Intolerance It's not just a conservative trait. Five Film Blurb See No Evil Hear No Evil, Compromising Positions, Daddy's Dying. Who's Got The Will? Judgment Night, Blowback Old Habits Everything improves with age. Robert DeNiro and Joey Lauren Adams: Shadow and Anima I watch too many movies. Further Thoughts on Endtime Events The government is always up to something nefarious. It's the nature of the beast. It's a Thought Maybe I'm wrong about the change. Changing America Becoming more paranoid is not change. It's waking up to reality. My Life is Like A Sport Trying to change is like failing to succeed. A Sitcom Life Trying to dispel the enveloping illusion. Trying to Make Sense of an Impossible Relationship I am not a therapist. If I Were A Therapist Most people are such wusses, really. 28 Film Blurbs Tin Cup, Straw Dogs, Strange Invaders, Blue Sky, Mr. North, The Dead, Brave New World, Oblivion, Johnson County War, Heat, Too Young To Die, Welcome Home, Outbreak, Just Cause, Golddiggers: The Secret of Bear Mountain, Father Hood, Bounce, Panic in the Year Zero, Bye Bye Love, Lace, The Lathe of Heaven, Mr. and Mrs. Bridge, Beautiful, Overexposed, The Court Martial of Billy Mitchell, Blood Crime, Cousins, Mac and Me. Printing Snail Mail Another grammar irregularity. Painting the House Being self-motivating is such a demotivating ordeal. The Compromise We Make The universe is in an advancing state of entropy and it is up to us to slow it down in this small sector of the cosmos. I Want/Don't Want To Work I think I'll take a nap. Sexual and Control Fantasies Repression can be deceptive. Isolation Mechanism I think I do not know so well people from my past. Commitment is Death? Radical feminism meets the reactionary male. The Myth of Eternal Damnation The Christian concept of Hell doesn't make sense. Internal Logic There are no absolutes. Order While I'm doing other things, life accumulates. The Isolation Mechanism There is no such thing as a free woman. Fantasies My favorite mental phenomenon. Personal Belongings Maintenance Keeping things temporarily secure. Bhumika A film review Watching and Waiting Another jerimiad. It's so rare that I actually finish one of these pastiches any more that I thought I'd note the event, even though I've referenced specific pieces in it many times below. An Entomology of Words A formal introduction to a new page I started several months ago. The Infamous Northwest Passage If an object is indirect, is it any less distant? Drawing a Balance Finding the center to avoid the extremes is not an easy thing to learn to do. Dept. of Public Grammar Obfuscating Gweneth Paltrow's cheeks. Enamel Clocks Are Ticking Lying in bed listening through the open window of the darkened bedroom to the crickets chirping. Our Mutual Religious Tradition God is merciful toward the merciful and strict toward the strict. Work Analysis A much more sane way to live. Deconstructing Babylon Terrorists are the snakehead fish and we are the lake poisoners. End Times The meek won't inherit the earth, they'll inherit its ashes. As If Hoping someone important will take notice. Film Blurb They Nest. A Realization of Depression? To be or not to be (depressed). That is the question. Roguery An alpha male in a world all his own. A Sci-Fi Nightmare Plot Soon, our heads explode, in proxy. Ignorance and Sin What if they choose you or me? The Heat, Part Three Physical exhaustion is settling in. Dept. of Public Grammar Redundant Redundancy Division. The Heat, Part Two Heat Exhaustion. The Heat, Part One Summer Problems. Five Film Blurbs Lost Souls, Escape from Athena, A Million for Juan, Detroit City Rock, Crimes and Misdemeanors Cancellations So what else is new? Girls, Women, and Ladies There aren't so many women in the world as there used to be. How Not To Care I seldom contact people any more. An Ex-News Babe A new page: instant analysis. What the news does for us, I do for psychology. A Canadian Lesson Angry words provoke angry deeds. Indications of a Peaceful Ending There's a little hope yet for the world. Twelve Film Blurbs Two for the Road, High Fidelity, Class, The Kentucky Fried Movie, Sodom and Gommorah, Ride with the Devil, Roadie, The Cool and the Crazy, The Bonnie Parker Story, Love at Stake, This Property is Condemned, The Dark Backward. Living Forever Attitude is everything, except when it isn't. Brief Addition Example of a film critic. That's Life Wake up, dude. Work Therapy Obsession controls anxiety. No News Is Good News It's not what they say it is. It's a Miracle ! What an insult. A Grab for Power and Control They're just not ever going to learn. A Fool and His Money Accounting practices are no different than they've ever been. My Home Is Where My Mind Is More dreams, mixing with "reality." More Dreams The second one is kind of wild. Random Dreams Two dream journal entries. I don't know why I post this journal. I don't really see a purpose to it. Maybe that's a good reason. Six Film Blurbs The Osterman Weekend, Demolition Man, Beautuful Girls, Howard the Duck, Save the Tiger, and Crimes of the Heart. Leading Minds Around Impinging recent events and their personal implications. Inside Out Welcome to my world. Airheads on Cellphones I just know I'm going to get in trouble for this one too. NewsBabes - a photo essay I just know I'm going to get in trouble for this. Insecurity It's better to be secure than informed. Summer Night A short poem, like a dream. And Speaking of Control... It's better to be quite radical instead. Hoodooism Distorting the light. A Very Graphic Dream I hesitated a long time before posting this. Three Film Blurbs THX-1138, Ace Ventura: Pet Detective, Defense of the Realm Swnging One Way and Another Stay out of the middle of the road. Julian Bond on Ashcroft Sometimes other people say it all so much better than I can. Getting Over The Past Is An Ongoing Affair If you want, babe, send me an e-mail. Maybe I'll respond. Self-Manipulation The past is ever present. The Ten Commandments of E-Mail I insinuate myself onto a world that insinuates itself into me. My New Phone Message A lot of people have been calling lately. I've been getting anywhere from fifteen to thirty calls day. But I never answer the phone, so I don't know who they are. Some unscrupulous website must have sold my phone number to a telemarketers list. Eleven Film Blurbs Guilty as Sin, Seven, Major League II, Robin Hood: Men in Tights, The Oxbow Incident, Eraser, Door-to-Door, One Fine Day, CB4, Electra Glide in Blue, Educating Rita. Breastfeeding as Pedophilia This could only have come from a very sick mind. Abusive Authority In a 7-11 parking lot in 1972, I witnessed a local cop punch a handcuffed white kid in the face while he was being put into a patrol car. A Website Proposal Insinuation works both ways, but we tend only to see it as it affects ourselves, not others. A Much More Peaceful World It's not major concerns like terrorism, but the little things, that form the foundation and determine the nature of society. A Brief History of my Preoccupation with the Printed A reconsidered revelation. Dubya's Daffynishyns When is black and white not black and white? All They Want To Talk About The MSNBC Question of the Day. Finding the Time to Write My life certainly has changed. The Sound of Underwear A new webpage: The Dept. of Public Grammar. Old Times I guess, after all, it wasn't so bad. Strategy for a Job Interview Watching between the pixels. Home Furnishings I'm the Fred Sanford of the white American middle class. Moving Neighbors come and neighbors go, but I just stay right here. Killing the Pain The hard stuff doesn't work for me. Everything I Say Is A Lie Everything I say is the truth. I'm taking a vacation from all of this. I don't want to do it any more. I want to do something else instead. Maybe I'll paint for awhile. This is jai signing off for a while. Back Pain Life's a bitch, but death sucks. Intelligent Intolerance A long hair addendum Intelligence and Insight How I am and am not like you. Selling Water by the River Switching to the active mode. Two Hints Not much, but little things amuse little minds. Present v. Past-State Dreaming An addition to dream theory, a section that I promised a long time ago that I'd develop, but never did. Mutual Attraction Interaction almost always works both ways. Low Self-Esteem? I need some positive feedback. Shining Through A film review. Performance Anxiety? Even my dreams are riddled with games. Two Film Blurbs Memphis Belle and Lionheart. Non-participation A bad, but practical, solution. An Obvious Distinction This personal discrepancy just will not go away. Funerals Are for the Living No one's going to mourn me when I'm gone. Dreaming of Helen And coming up blank. An E-mail adn a Book Sale Just the facts, ma'am. Back Asswards Major work and minor chores, but it seems like it's the other way around. Hot and Quiet Summer incidents. Out of the Mainstream Leaving myself to my own devices. A Film Review Reckless. Four Film Blurbs Earth vs. The Spider, Fire Down Below, The Peacemaker, and The Glass Shield. Grammar Rules Advancement is only advanced when you're advancing. Creating Websites A public appearance. When They Are Gone I too easily disregard the people from my past when they are no longer immediately available. Social Reintegration I have been thoroughly engulfed by society and well aware of it. A Schizoid Society Less socially participatory people are more social. Huh? Mythmaking We are all one tradition, split apart by mythology. The Revolution - a fable A new short short. Cold at Night A short addition to the novel reidentity. My Work Philosophy/Policy This is a very old journal category that I've never posted before [Dept. of Motif/v(e/ation)]. Controlling the World (Or My Own Self) Struggling with the dilemma of a schizoid personality. The Myth of Democracy "The government is not the people." Oh yeah, you asshole? Domesticity Sometimes I am enraptured into believing that life is permanent. Anything is Possible Life is a sealed box that we choose, to open. Freebird Just another day in the life of a pseudo-psychic. My Legacy Line prose about my life's obsession. Mortal Thoughts Death is for those who are not alive. Agreeability It's difficult to interact with certain "sociable" people. Personal Contact I used to be so good at this. What happened?. Despite the Circumstances Life goes on. Long Term Temporary A new (old) pastiche. Recuperation is a wonderful thing to behold. But this was written over a year ago, so who knows where I am now? That's the problem with retrospective. By the time you assimilate enough of your past to do it, you're already somewhere else and it's not so potent as it might otherwise be. Anarchist A brief afterthought to The Ozzy Files. Empathy and Appropriation More additions to reidentity. Prostitution: Katy taught me this. Additions to my new novel re-identity. A Biography The life of an unknown woman. Doesn't That Say Something? Nationalism v. the killing of innocent civilians. Areas of Gray Postmodern fiction as personal truth. What a Bust When is sincerity not sincerity? My God! Drug testing, the Pledge of Allegiance without God, and school vouchers. What's next? Doubt 101 Searching the Net for interesting people. The Inside/Outside Line Is Martha Steward getting a bad deal? The Monitoring of Thought Joe MacCarthy is alive and well and living in Washinton, D.C. The Initial Separation A long, long time ago... The Problem with Working within a Society But what other choice do we have, really? End of an Argument Overheard art. Chronological Disconnect Sometimes the magic works, sometimes it doesn't. Gentle Contact I've never been more in touch. Belated Thoughts on Ozzy Nostalgia, or something like it. Everything is Normal Child-rearing via long-distance telephone. The Twenties Excerpts from a novel I've been working on for some time now. It's a fantasy. Some hot stuff here. Land of the Free and Home of the Babes A new pastiche, obsessed, so far, with a warped definition of journalism. (But it's going to get better, I promise. I know what's coming up.) A Trap I Could Easily Fall Into Continung the investigation into the difference between the inner and the outer. Inherent Violence You might think you're not involved, but you are. Playing Right Into My Schizoid Psychology Continuing self-insight residue from the Rick experience. The Validity and Honor of the Justice System Don't bother clicking on this one. It's nothing. Look Out World Let me be quite clear. Wherever You Go, There You Are Working in the garret. Freedom Working to assure that self-imposed restrictions remain a form of freedom, and not vice versa. Where the hell have I been? A radical conclusion: social integration is not the goal of therapy; it is the therapy. Internal Organs Stop fucking with my mind. A Happy Medium Somewhere between us, maybe in the middle of the street. More Hope Truth in rationalization. A New Orientation The same thing, really. Just a new sense of hope. Hey, it's summer. Psychism I made a friend the other day that I forgot that I already had. Reverse Prejudice I'd be better off if I were from Mars. Wrong Answer What's your biggest weakness? Who Needs Sleep Anyway? Ah, the hazy, crazy, manic days of summer. Rick O'Connor A social day in the life of a past I have all but left behind. Another Graduation Day Or why I am not so enthusiastic about attending social events. Pretending To Be Young Whatever happened to diplomacy? The art of statesmanship is dead. Now we have confrontational politics instead. Preliminaries to the Main Event Or how I set myself up to experience the things I do. Tuning In Cancelled even before it starts. The Economics of Enterprise I consider going back to work. I must be going crazy again. Three Film Reviews The Color of Night, Country Girl, and Dog Eat Dog. Going Off the Deep End Hoarding as a symptom of my sanity. Time Management The problem with managing your life like a business. The continuing saga of my business anxiety separation. Neighborhood A short poem. And They Tell Me I'm Crazy There are a lot of borderline people in this world. Power Grabbing The good will of federal agents can be, at times, in very short supply. Call me Muller Some people just can't handle the truth. The Federal Bureau of Intimidation I have documentation I'm willing to reveal. Don't Ask I might tell. seventeen film blurbs Lady in a Cage, Midnight Lace, Band of the Hand, Cat Girl, Staying Together, Payback, At the Earth's Core, Being John Malcovich, Three Faces of Eve, Meeting Venus, Bright Angel, The Amazing Transparent Man, Sixpack Annie, Heat, Scanners, Where the Heart Is, Big Girls Don't Cry. They Get Even. (I watched a whole lot of movies this month.) His Name is Sam A big addition to my most recent novel reindentity that I hadn't been working on for a quite while now. Personal Anti-Semitism This small piece is not really so inflammatory as some overly-sensitive people may think it is. Think about it. An addition to reidentity, my novel-in-progress. a spam reply I have this obsession that I must somehow make a place in my art for everything I write. echoing echoes Everyone echoes through my head like I am my own universe. Scheduling Irrelevancies How come the most important thing to be done is never something I am doing at the time? Death in the Neighborhood We all want to be more than we are, and so we construct elaborate fantasies that we call religion. A Reconstructed Universe This idea is pretty wild, a religious rationalization I want to think, but who knows? Perfect Employees Another old dream with associations to real life characters. Psychological Protection An old dream that fits perfectly into what I'm experiencing now. A coincidence that I just happen to be logging this old stuff at this time? Arguments Against Publishers An old piece from back during the time when I was super-sensitive about the issue. Attention Missing the praise I used to get that was so well hidden amid the criticism. The Usual Suspects The start of a new pastiche, which is actually a novel I've been working on for ten years now. Mandatory Journaling The end of a brief era in my career in "journalism." Moving On A partial list of dream symbols is like furniture without a house. Criticizing the Criticizer This is a preliminary foray my mind was making without me realizing it. I'll be posting some extenstive follow-ups to this piece next month. I Love You, I Love You Not A film review. Two Book Reviews my mother:demonology by Kathy Acker, and A Personal Matter by Kenzaburo Oe The Evil Dictator I mean, how can you not love an old man with a beard? Three Film Blurbs The Good Son, Desperate Hours, and The Cell Short Short This is a sixty word novel that I wrote for an online journal contest, but then I decided that it wasn't the right subject matter. Neo-Nazis Government employees who feel they have the right to ride herd over the American public in the name of morals and public decency should all go to hell. What are Friends For? Shaking off the guilt that I want to think society burdens me with. Five Film Blurbs Switchback, Last of the High Kings, Return of the Native, Gaby: A True Story, and Soldier Boyz Heavy A film review. Sergio and The Weasel An addition to the meta-novel that I'm assembling online. Baby, Let Me Introduce You to My Web-Headed Friend Having a difficult time understand me? Yeah. Me too. A Neighborhood of Strangers What we dream is who we are, unless we are someone else. Covering Up A new beginning? Sneaky Ads Never buy that product. Power Talks Do we live in a democratic republic or a republican democracy? Why I Don't Have a Girlfriend An addition to an old pastiche that I thought I had previously beaten to death. Joan and Melissa High Kitsch? Red Headed Stranger A film blurb. Defining Ability Disability is just another state of mind. Avoiding Obligation People are so thin-skinned, don't you think? Or maybe it's just me. Today's Troubled Teens The beginning of a new pastiche, "The FBI Files." Haunted House A poem. What does this mean? Figure it out for yourselves. I'm so tired. Three Film Blurbs Shanghai Noon, Sleep With Me, and The Ice Storm Manny and Lo A film review. Marathon Sometimes life is so worthwhile, when I can do whatever I want. Upgrades Technology progresses too damn fast for me, and yet where would I be without it? More Obscure Self How far will people go to see how far I will go? Communication It's not what you think it is. Strange Days Personified My psychic life is like bad weather. Two Film Reviews Six Degrees of Separation and Man on the Moon Reparations Euro-Americanism at its finest. Politics as Usual What goes around, comes around. More Backup Insecurity In search of a foolproof strategy. Clothing Fantasy Before the grunge scene, I had no style. Ozzy Makes A New Friend It's all right, ma. It's only Hollywood. Conception A very old poem. (It may be my first. I can't remember back that far.) Say Cheese You can't get here from there. You have to go back the way you came. Failure to Recognize the Good Vilification in the guise of progress. An Ideal Sleeping Environment Fighting the attitude that feeds me. Right Away Real value is not time-specific. It is ubiquitous and timeless. Bug Update Crawling coffee grounds. idols A new page (an aimless list). Giving Credit It's not too cool to be too hip. Rule #4 Anything you know is spun. Prostitution Selling yourself is not nearly so satisfying as self-indulgence. Rule #3 Them old rules is only in your head. The Hook How not to attract a readership. Film Blurbs Empire of the Ants and 12 Monkeys Everyone He Used to Know The end of the neighborhood pastiche. Back-up Insecurity A post to a newsletter requesting help on back-up issues. Static Dreaming as a means of recognizing psychic power and translating it into everyday terms. Determining Mechanism Programming a non-modifying method. More Neighborhood. Black Day at Big Rock A college graduation ceremony, the effects of a concussion, and Sticky Fingers. Distant And Out Of It Looking and feeling Like Ozzy. Late Autumn Symbolic realism. Another addition to the Neighborhood pastiche. Holiday I'm breathing through my mouth so I don't have to sniff the air. Correction George and Al and Bill and Hillary. Final Draft And now for something completely different. Another Point of Similarity A mere afterthought many many months later. Superceleb I shouldn't be so resentful. Ozzy's new popularity is a justification of my long time devotion to him. Resisting the Inevitable Society presses in asking for commitment. Bewitchment All of the signs are there. All you have to do is to pay attention. King of the Ant Hill Everyone wants peace, but no one is willing to live peacefully. Re-defining Work It's only work if you hate doing it. Break-in Apparently, I slept through the whole thing. Rabbit Love Another comparative psychology example. The Worker Bee Theory Trying to report the facts and get at a deeper truth. Unconscious Wisdom Protecting against bad influence. Nags and Bugs Writing is my therapy. All the rest of life doesn't too much matter. Ozzie at the White House Did you ever get the idea that people in Washington just ain't got a clue? Groggy Why I sometimes don't answer my door. Another addition to the neighborhood. Sun Worship Now my time begins. Summer Mania My mind just doesn't want to stop. Clinton - A Quote Collage The Mr. Bill Show? Dwelling on the Past Living without dreams is living in a fictive present. Believing is Seeing Cultural bias and superstition creates false reality. Special Offer Are we really, as a species, this stupid? I guess so, if these kinds of marketing ploys still work. Who Am You? Identity is such a confusing issue. Educating the Obese A local school district is creating the geat sin. It's telling kids they're fat. Staying Warm Waking up in the morning soaking wet and snuggling an empty milk bottle. Changing My Mind Go ahead and kill yourself, I don't care. Spirits, Ghosts, and Angels What are they, really? A continuation of the postings to The Neighborhood pastiche. Hip Yeah, like cool, baby. Ozzie is a Friend of Mine Yeah, I wish. A Social Moment Wherein I pretend that I gave up worrying about this kind of stuff years ago. Awakening A large number of additions to the neighborhood pastiche. This is a story about someone who is almost me, but not quite. I put it together from my Feb and Mar 2001 journals, which were written when I was more concerned with other people than I am now. Une Affaire de Gout Good taste does not necessarily taste good. The Crux of Fiction Nothing in this life makes any difference. But we want so much for it not to be true. Passing Time A reverie of being, finally, beyond business. Disused Spam Reply My Website is becoming a refuse dump for material I don't know what to do with. Like Marlon Brando Any more, it's getting to be too much to explain myself. I'd rather be misunderstood. I don't know how to love me. Yet another failed self-heuristic episode. Microsoft's Problems I'm back to trying to catch up again. This is a journal entry from last year that, although it still has revelvance, doesn't really say much. my work my art my daily life in journal entries It doesn't make any sense, what I have to do to keep myself sane. Rules Lists and schematics indicative a state of deep disturbance. Executive Decision A short film blurb. I don't even know why I'm bothering to post it here. A Riddle When is the past not the past? When it's the future. At Play in the Valley of Jezreel A serious work ethic for the rest of eternity. Well Within Your Mind Timewarp, television, planning, priests, and pedophilia. Meditational Antithesis Thoughts that run like a tickertape through the meditating brain. Jack and Sarah Fatherhood was never so postmodern. Before They Stop Caring Major and minor problems--but which is which? Untamed Heart A sappy, but well-acted film. Minimal Participation A lawyer who tries his own case has a fool for a client. What about psychologists? Obsession It can be a dangerous thing. Blurbs A new films' section. This is becoming an obsession. Maybe I'll give it up everything else and just write movie reviews. Three More Film Reviews Welcome to the Dollhouse, Prisonnieres, and L'Ultimo Capodanno. Dump Gore in Zero Four The Democrats haven't been the people's party for quite some time anyway. Unidentified Flying Oddball Some movies are so bad that you can't even write an introduction to them. Torrents of Water Everything that exists in the present has its origin in the past. Water Leakage A symbol of universal life, leaking all over the place. Ten-Year Plan My life lies before me like a Communist Manifesto. Explaining Complexity We're all looking for simple answers. Slavery v. States' Rights What's taught is what's not. Against Celebrity Remaining irresponsible and independent and having fun. More Heuristics Disenfranchisement as a power base. An Ideal Ideal Comparing myself to a better way of life. Trying To Understand Transition is always a difficult thing for me. Natural-Born Rebels Everything is never what it seems. Going Back Out Another angel empties out its vial? Human Rules The beginning of a new pastiche. Mimicking Aware Behavior Human or computer, the problems are the same. Burn, Baby, Burn What's hot and what's not in the music world today. Not Ready for Prime Time And as far as television news goes any more, all time is prime. Sleeping Minds I can't wait for the future, when we will all be more together. Back from the Future Wouldn't it be nice if we all knew what everyone was thinking? A Microcosm Gone Astray Trying to live in peace and freedom in a world that doesn't deserve it. Opening Up The "inside" edge quickly wears away. Two film reviews Oleanna and Disney's The Kid. And some critical comments about the industry in general. A Long, Long Winter Transitioning. Leaving Home I never want to be with anyone who doesn't want me. Appropriation A non-entry entry. Reporting It's the 'in' thing. A Basic Change? Maybe there really is no such thing as change, huh? The Further Adventures of Steve and Marcia He needs a tougher kind of love. The Final Solution The code for the day is... Will the real King Abdullah please stand up? The American Injustice System Corporations do not commit fraud. The government does, when it plays the money game. In Retrospect The time warp is narrowing and soon the future will come crashing back into the present. Absolutely Nothing When is today not today? Lawful Intimidation Phantom terrorists and an inferiority complex. Overflowing It's a difficult life when your mind if full of fish. Boredom It isn't what it used to be. Who Am I? The continuing search for a consistent identity. The Imp Developing a cast of characters for this web-novel experiment. Slow If it weren't for writing, I'd have no life at all. To Kill A Cat Live and let die. The anti-liberalism of America. Trying To Get Noticed I'm waiting for them to break down the door and come storming into the house, guns drawn and voices shouting. As Big As I Am More bad poetry. I should be ashamed, but I'm not. (The scansion is based on syllables, not meter.) an addendum to the addendum Others collaborate to make me what I am, when I do not want to be it. The Nature of the Warrior The meek shall inherit the earth, but who are the meek? addendum Telling people what I really think, or learning to keep my big mouth shut. Being Myself A nasty mood, and pretty much out of it.
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