Similarities and Correspondences
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ana n. 1. A collection of notes, sketches, or scraps of literature bearing on some particular subject. 2. The information in such a collection. See --ANA.
ana adv. Med. Of each: used in prescriptions to signify the amount to be taken of two or more substances prescribed: often abbr. ã or ãã. ana-- prefix 1. Up; upward: anadromous 2. back; backwards: anapest. 3. Anew: sometimes capable of being rendered re-, as anabaptism, rebaptism. 4. Throughout; thoroughly: analysis. Also, before vowels and h, an- --ana suffix Pertaining to: added to the names of notable persons, places, etc., to indicate a collection of materials, such as writings or anecdotes, about the subject: Americana. Also iana. |
i do believe and know that plants are also sentient creatures with a will to live just as strong as a human or a cow. and plants are just as miraculous and complex and just as much a beautiful miracle as any animal. ... i feel that the REALITY that vegetables are ALSO sentient beings with a will to live is sorely overlooked. they just don't have cute eyes and they can't scream or run. which, of course, puts those of us who are sensitive empathetic people when it comes to what we eat into quite an ethical predicament. what IS the difference between eating boiled lobster vs. boiled spinach? and of course we would ALL be grossed out to eat the lobster while it still WAS alive....but that's what we do when we eat a salad. it just dies a pretty violent death right there in our mouths...much like a snake eating a mouse.
ana voog, 9-1-1
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I made a t-shirt once that said: "Hey, PETA! Plants have feelings too. Eat Dirt!" (I made a separate version that said "Eat Shit!" but I never wore it.)
The words you wear on your chest or back characterize you.
As with most projects I begin, the zeitgeist project has piffered out.
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--Gus, 8-1-1
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On 1-13-02, ana writes:
>something i am just starting to delve into on a much deeper level is pedophelia. . .
i'm confused about the whole thing. i even find myself being lured into it,
but is it my wish to return to the state of being a child girl? i do still
see myself in that way in many ways still. how is it for a man then?<
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1. This makes intuitive sense to me. I feel this. 2. This is the basic problem, the focus (F1). In a certain sense, this is not a problem at all, but rather the human condition, an inevitable failure to find the basic need of unconditional acceptance. It only becomes a real problem when it becomes fixated at a certain point so that it prevents social functioning. 3. This is yet to be investigated, but it feels true. This is a point (elsewhere defined) for further introspection. 4. People are never what I want them to be. (I theorize that people are never what anyone wants them to be. We are a race of disenchanted, dissatisfied individuals.) But, apparently, these frustrations can be overcome. Hooray! Via empathy and selfobject transferences, we learn to be ourselves (i.e., our selfobjects.) Longing after others as objects of ourselves, we gradually become aware of how we project ourselves onto others (becoming fans). In other words, we analyze and interpret the transferences. 5. Self-therapy, by this defintion, should be impossible, since both analyst and patient exist within the same person, so that what might be in an other-therapy situation an impossible harmony producing therapeutic results, becomes in self-therapy a dissociation. But therapy via other-interaction (i.e., via empathy and transferences) can still be possible, because a part of the self is projected onto another, who functions transferrentially as a proxy patient. 6. I'm not sure from the context here who it is who is correcting whose misunderstandings. In my (self-therapeutic) case, though, it doesn't matter. Whether the analyst part of me is correcting its own (counter-transferential) misunder- standings or the analysand is correcting its own mis- understandings is irrelevant. Misunderstanding is being corrected within the (my) self, enabled by the insight gained via empathy with external selfobjects, which in standard therapy would be the analyst, but which here are the others empathized with. 7. In my (self-therapeutic) case, this would mean the creation of an "inner harmony" via a realization that the inner and outer worlds are "in tune" because similarities and correspondences are seen. I develop a greater capacity to find myself in others (and vice versa), thus (further) freeing myself from an isolated, separated world. |
What a cruel thing to pretend. What a cunning way to condescend. Once my lover, but now my friend.
Fiona Apple
"Shadowboxer" |
Ana was once a friend of mine. But that was in another life.
We've lost touch, and she's forgotten. Now, she's back again. But she still doesn't remember. She's a different ana now. Even better, though. Smarter. More like me, more liberal. She's still sad though. That hasn't changed. It follows her. We carry themes through multiple lives, until they're resolved. She seems even worse now that she was before. More crazy. Less stable. Needs meds now, but that's because they're more available. She hides from me, even more so now. She thinks she doesn't know me. At first, I thought she wasn't going to acknowledge me at all. But now I see, she can't help but see who it is I am. I have to read between the lines of paranoia. It's kind of nice, to know I can influence her, that she'll allow it like she used to, but now without such direct contact, in her art. I see myself reflected in the mirror of her writing. It excites me to think, she knows, but is afraid, to contact, me. I know, we see. |
It's a strange day, no colors. No sun tonight. I forget who I am when I'm with you. There's no reason. There's no sense. I'm not supposed to feel. I forget who I am. I forget. Fascist baby. Utopia. Utopia. My dog needs new ears. Make his eyes see forever. Make you live like me, again and again. Fascist baby. Utopia. Utopia. I'm wired to the world, that's how I am. I know everything. I'm superbrain. That's how they made me. Fascist baby. Utopia. Utopia.
Goldfrapp,
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To: anacam@camgirl7.com Date: Thu, 30 Aug 2001 09:11:44 -0400 Subject: Re "Utopia" by Goldfrapp >do you think the song called "utopia" by goldfrapp is about an android? the more i listen to it...i think it is...which makes me love it all the more. my android fetish grows and grows. i think i need to build myself an android. i mean..i know i need to. and i will.< It probably is about an android, or about the psychology behind why we are so attracted to the idea of androids, like we are attracted to aliens or angels. The "New Ears Mix" version of the song (basically instrumental) reminds me of the music in the old flick "Zardoz" with Sean Connery and Charlotte Rampling. Have you seen it? Great fantasy. Not about androids, but utopia, where people never die. Also reminds me of "The Hunger" with David Bowie, Susan Sarandon, and the famous French actress whose name escapes me at the moment. (If I were an android, I wouldn't forget.) I always wanted to be an android. If we live long enough, we'll all be androids, when they start replacing all our failing body parts with artificial ones and plugging computer chips into our brains. What are the words in the song just before "make his eyes see again?" I can't understand them? SuperBrains, jai PS: Catherine Deneuve |
12:50p: i've decided that in my lifetime, it must be made possible that cloning will be available to the public so that we may clone our pets because i NEVER want to live without the pookadog. ... i am the android in the song utopia by goldfrapp. and when she sings, " my dog needs new ears...make his eyes see forever...make him live like me...again and again...." that is me being an android singing about my pookadog. i want everything to be that new and calm and serene everyday. reboot me and defragment me everyday. ... humming and whirring, ana |
i'm trying to be a pleasure activist like annie sprinkle. she believes that when something bad is happening in the world, it is her duty to counteract/balance that energy by doing something pleasurable, like masturbating. when i read that she had said that ( in that book called Angry Women by REsearch )it changed my life and she has been my hero ever since. well, so i have been trying to do that the last few days. sometimes when i come i can imagine the light pouring out of my clitoris and into the matrix of the universe for healing and for joy. and the light sprouts out the top of my head and it also shoots straight down out of my toes deep into the core of the earth and then it all circles back again into me and then out again. |
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excerpt from e-mail to my mailing list, 9-15-1: special note to Alice: You are so, so right in your social analyses (and in everything else I read from you.) I find your ideas echoed in my writings over the past few days. (Actually, I've been noticing this echo for quite a while now.) If you will, please read my latest bit of writing, because I feel you may be one of the few people on the planet who is capable of understanding it. (If you find the introductory material boring, or if my erratic style bothers you, scan down to section C.) |
From a local northern coal (steel) town to southern climes, Italy and New Mexico, deserts, at heart, literature in hand, always, attached, problems with, yet affinity for women, lesbians, traveler, wandering, wanderlost, he never settled down, except when on the road. Who does this sound like, in his early days? I've betrayed myself, reincarnated into form. He died just as I was born. |
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