This was written a long time ago, when I didn't know so much physics as I thought I did. There's a bit of bad science herein. I should rewrite it, but I have more important things to do.
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The Myth of Truth
A universe exists between the night time and the waking day.
A bright horizon light reflects through landscape shadows.
A tortured soul hides in crevices, afraid, that light will find
it out. The dark holds power, dispelled by ordinary dawn
that finds the monsters of the night laid helpless on the lawn.
I see the truth, mostly in short glimpses, which I try to explain, mostly in my writing. But it always turns out to be only adequate. I never really pin it down exactly. And in any case, I'm never able to retain the insight, it is so ephemeral. I end up reading over my journals, again and again, to avoid missing the obvious truth in my life, and I continue on, remaining mostly within an illusion. We all live mostly in illusion, but I feel that I should know better, having seen the light. But the nature of real truth is such that it is elusive. When we think we know the truth, we don't. We have to see it, experience it, then we simply know, without thinking. This is purpose.
The most important purpose we can have, perhaps the only important one, is to seek the truth of the universe. To this end we must first separate out that which purports to be true but which may not be from that which is at least potentially true. In order to discover whether any system of fact and belief purporting to be the truth actually is, we must ask two questions:
First, is the system "mythic?" Much of that which purports to be true is in fact myth. This is the first test of a true science. (Science itself can be myth, which detracts from its claim to validity, as is demonstrated by the attempt of Creationists to argue---falsely, I believe---that evolutionary theory is actually a religion.) If a system of belief has a mythic component, or is a functional mythic system in its whole, then it must be questioned as to whether it can function dually as a science.
Which brings us to the second question: is there any "scientific" basis for the belief that any given mythic system may be "true" despite the fact that it is mythic? (I take "true" here to mean empirically true, which definition I will stray from shortly, in several directions.) Human culture is a myth-making phenomenon. We revel in the misapplication of logic to mythic systems. We love our mythology, and we love to deify it. All we need do is examine the most obvious example of "The Truth" in our society, the Bible, to understand that this is so. The Bible is a huge mythic system. To conclude that it is not, consequently, the "truth" is to go a step too far, but this is not the kind of truth I am looking for.1 A "psychological" truth can exist that is yet not (empirically) scientific. The Bible is replete with this type of truth, truth which could and probably has in many cases been verified as scientific in the particular. Ideas like "to them who have, even more shall be given" should be easily verifiable; we can see, for example, how people who live in areas where there is no chain grocery store, such as in impoverished urban areas, must pay more for their food and supplies than people who live in suburban areas adjacent to huge shopping complexes where items may be discounted as a result of large volume sales because many more people can patronize the stores (not a coincidence; this is why the complex was built in the first place). Suburbanites tend to be more affluent, so that, additionally, they are able to afford a car that can transport them to even better-priced commodities, a "luxury" that the poor cannot afford, so that they are required to rely on public transportation, which limits the amounts of sale-priced items that they can carry home. This mechanism functions within all cultures to keep the poor poor, and the Bible reports it.
Other Biblical truths, ideas like "everything comes to him who waits" must await a more rigorous science which may prove the laws of karma, but these should turn out, I believe, to be equally true.
Overall, then, the Bible is a mythic system designed for the purpose of providing people with a cultural background against which they may measure their righteousness and practical morality, a system whereby the real truth (empirical), unknown at the time of its writing, is replaced with literary and imaginative devices and images, any one of which may have been either taken for truth at the time or may have been known---at least to the writer(s)---to be a theological or story-telling convention. To say, because it is mythic, that the Bible is not true, is a misunderstanding; but in light of modern science, we can certainly say that it is not literally true. Its truth is mythic, and literary, and "psychological." But it is not the Truth I am looking for.
Even if God exists, even if It would just happen to be personally involved in our lives, (such as, even if It were He, or even She), there is still no reason to believe that we exist beyond death. I believe, as do many others, that we are God's awareness here on earth, in this sector of the universe, and now to a more, limited extent, in the universe as a whole (since the science of cosmology has advanced us to a state where the Hubble telescope has photographed the Deep Field Image.) We have always been God's awareness in the universe; but we have been, as humans, sadly misinformed as to the nature of what we have been perceiving. I'm certain that we are still misinformed to a large extent; but we are getting better and better at understanding.
And that's the point: we are God's awareness, developing, learning. We are made up of the stuff of God, cosmic stardust, and we are evolving, toward greater and greater understanding. But just because you're able to visit other worlds or other dimensions in trances, applying the most advanced "scientific" thought that you know of to trance state phenomena, doesn't mean that after you die you'll be able to go to the place that you envision (or to the place that others have envisioned) to exist, which you accept on "faith" (a word that means that you don't really know). The "gift" of conscious awareness of other dimensions/states of consciousness can be a function of an advanced mentality, or it can be self-deception, but in any case, consciousness is based within the existence of a human organism, which perishes.
Yes, there may be other dimensions, other universes, other realms, but that doesn't mean we go there when we die. There is no reason to believe, despite this lofty position we hold, at the top of stardust's evolutionary chain, that any one of us is anything more than a single, expendable human macro-molecule, each of us, to the degree of our capability, putting in our two cents worth (or more, now, after centuries of scientific inflation) before we pass on the torch to the next generation.
In other words, there is no reason to believe that we will graduate to a far, far better place, despite what wishful-thinking mystics of the past have told us, of their sound, or light, or drug, or aberrant-body/mind-chemistry induced "journeys" into supra-conscious/trance experience. They may have gotten it wrong, they may have been deluded or imaginatively hoping.
We search for what we want to be; we create myths to this purpose, self-fulfilling prophecies, which yet never take on a reality, but rather become false systems of belief. It is our job, today, always, continuing on a tradition of science/reason, and simultaneously, of phenomenological philosophy, to find the Truth in a more precise way, despite the traditionalists and fundamentalists who will always try to inhibit us.
Another example of myth: the light we see in near-death and after-death experiences from which some of us return is not an afterlife but a physiological experience caused by oxygen deprivation. It is the last experience we will have, "going toward the light." And we are in the process of making a (new age) myth out of it. This is not to say that there is no afterlife, but merely to indicate that this light is not evidence for it. When we die, we are still alive for a while after our body functions cease. Our brains take longer to die than our bodies. We are still here when everyone thinks we're gone. This doesn't necessarily mean we are eternal, it only means we have not advanced biological/medical science and/or the legal system far enough to recognize the essentially living state of a recently dead body. Certain neo-theologians and neo-scientists would have us believe that this system of myth is "true." Only a further developed science can abstract the truth out of the phenomenological state.
With respect to the truth, philosophy and phenomenology have their limits; science does not, for when it comes up against the unknown, it defines it as such (in the best of cases, and eventually, when the old arthritic-minded scientists get out of the way and let the less rigid minds run the show) and proceeds to redefine the problem; maybe, ultimately, there is a scientific limit, but I don't believe that we will find it in this universe, in this dimension (i.e., these dimensions, these four, spacetime.)
If we are each a point of God's awareness, then possibly It has been waiting, patiently, for what else can It be, at least in these dimensions, evolving right along with us. This doesn't mean that It is not so great as we have thought of It. It means that It has been unconscious, awaiting Its own enlightenment, through our development, and through the development of whatever other intelligent life may have thus far evolved in the universe.
Of course, this is entirely conjecture. There is no reason to believe one way or the other whether God, if It exists, is conscious or unconscious, or whether It is near (or even within us) or far beyond us in a way that we can never understand, in the folds of spacetime as well as beyond it, before the Big Bang, after the dissolution of spacetime beyond the distant edge of the universe, and/or in the pockets of black holes reaching into that same non-place. We cannot know, at least not yet, nor for a quite while to come, if ever. But there are plenty of people who pretend to have the knowledge and set about to convince others of their revelation. But all you have to do to realize that they are espousing a mythology is to compare their revelation to others. The nature of The Truth is such that, ultimately, there cannot be two of them. If two conflicting truths are proposed, suspect both. It's the prudent thing to do. Otherwise, ignorance ensues.
People are ignorant because, when it comes to things like religion, they just can't say, "I don't know," and accept their beliefs as tentative, they have to become adamantly dogmatic in their views and insist that their beliefs are "The Truth." But I am searching for the ultimate truth, and so I can never say, "I know" and be certain of it, because there is a limit to my knowledge. I am a finite being, and a rather limited one at that. I may "see," in revealed visions, but I cannot translate those visions adequately into rational words, and neither can anyone else. If they tell you they can, disbelieve them. They not only want your adherence to their beliefs; they want your soul. And they use myths to gain access to it.
Myths are great and powerful mechanisms. Mythmaking is one of humanity's most valuable resources. But I think that each myth will have had its day, and fundamentalists must give way to the recognition of the increasing impotence of old myths as neologisms in the culture replace them. If there is a fault in religion, this is it: more than in any other area of culture, religion will hang onto old, outdated, superceded mythology.
Take the Bible, for example. It's a great mythic system, full of basic spiritual and psychological truth, but if not interpreted according to the most modern of scientific and historical methods, the ancient texts become a series of little deceptions. Most of the early Bible stories are not of Jewish origin, but are Sumerian, and probably even earlier, yet Jews and Christians think they are their own as they live each within a microcosm, thinking that their myths are God's truth revealed to them as It's special people.
I find it interesting that Christians can be so smug as to deny the Jewish tradition in favor of their own, more "enlightened" myths when they are the very same myths. (The same is true of Islam, but I don't know so much of that religion to consider it in this light.) The Jesus myth is at best a continuation of the Old Testament prophets' work, which is continuation of the traditions that preceded Judaism.
Fundamentalists Christians need to get their heads out of their asses long enough to see that we are all one long tradition, that the Jews are in fact the mainstream of that tradition (Islam notwithstanding; Jews and Arabs are one brotherhood, split apart and fighting a fraternal battle), that even Oriental tradition, if it could be traced back far enough, can find its origins in the same set of myths. And Jews, too, need to pull their heads out long enough to realize that "their" values and traditions are more basically human than exclusively Jewish, that the unknown sources of the Torah (etc.) go farther back than their own history.
We are all one, species, race, humanity. The split we are experiencing, a natural result of evolution, can be healed, because for the first time in the history of this world, we have the means by which we can unite. It's called the human mind, which we have been abusing for millennia, but which we can use to integrate, via science and technology, the divergent theologies of our species. (Even scientists have myths that split them all apart.) We can do it, but I doubt that we will. Not for a very long time at least. We are still way too ignorant. We would rather fight than switch. We are a mythic people, and we desire, to remain that way, clouded in illusion, blinded by the light. Truth is obscure, at best.
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When, momentarily, The Truth is revealed to me, I know it for what it is. But how can I possibly communicate it when I can't even retain it for my own later edification? I could hope to point people in its direction, but I can't even often point myself. Others have pointed me, that is, I have benefited, I think, from their direction. But have I really? Maybe I would be no different than I am if they had never said a word. I like to think not, but who knows? Mostly, I have been lost, with only occasional glimpses of a cosmic purpose.
"I had no joy within, my soul had died, and so I adopted the mythology of Jesus Christ, and felt so much better, to be able to live within the deception that I was eternally saved." 2
Despair is as obscured as is the light, when mythology is substituted for it.
If I am God's awareness, then it seems to me that the most important purpose I can have is to dwell continually on the truth of the universe as best as I can formulate it, advancing it, day by day, minute by minute, as accurately as I am able, that is, to the level of my ability. Cosmological scientists and truly modern philosophers, thus, are the most advanced level of the consciousness of God. (I avoid the label "theologians" because there are no modern ones. All you have to do to discover that this is true is to read what they write, to find that it is deeply couched in mythic dogma. They are all caught up in a superstitious past, unable to come out of it.)
People less able (less educated or less capable of being educated), or less willing (if unconsciously) than cosmologists/philosophers, and I, adapt to social roles which (more or less) support the development of society, so that the advanced guard can be about God's work.
[I am aware that I sound arrogant, but what can I do? I feel myself to be like one of the rigid dogmatists I criticize, and if I am, that would be logical, Spock, because I am prone to denial and projection, as we all are. But there is a difference between the dogmatists and me: I know that I don't know. I am mere conjecture. And yet I believe, that my conjectures are the right ones. (Why else would I promote them?) I believe I am right, to the degree that I am able, in this space and time. Is this arrogance? Is this human foible? We each do the best we can.]
By studying the most advanced science and thought (including conjecture), I can perhaps myself advance, or at least I can understand, the science. This is the most important purpose, to try to understand that which is not yet known, especially that which relates to the extra-dimensionality (for lack of a better word) of God, that which is so far beyond us that we are ill-equipped, or not equipped at all, to deal with it, that which we may grasp intuitively, or in a revelatory flash, but which we cannot grab onto rationally or scientifically, either because we have not put into place the missing steps leading up to it, or because we will never be able to, being equipped with too feeble an intelligence (individually or as a species.)
note 1: of course, it is almost as valuable to be the people (scientists, technologists, et al) who work doggedly to put into place those missing steps as it is to be one of the cosmologist/ philosophers who will conjecture as to what is really "out there" (in here?)
note 2: it could be that our destiny as humans is to have created an artificial capacity in computers that is far beyond us and that can know God in a more intimate way than we could ever know, in the same way that it has been the destiny of apes to have evolved into humans who then advanced God's knowledge. The next evolutionary step could be artificial intelligence, which would then be as natural as we are now, because, after all, computers are about to become programmed molecules, and molecules are naturally occurring events. And if we can program molecules, then why not atoms (or even sub-atomic particles; why not? If you can program molecules, why not quarks? And are our own quarks, thus, now, programmed? Our molecules certainly are. It's an interesting line of thought.) But we don't have to go that far. Computers are right now made up of the same stuff as we animals are made of---ultimately the hydrogen and helium created in the first several minutes of the universe, cosmic dust.
note 3: and of course it's possible that computers could become human adjuncts, wired into our neural networks, so that we become super-humans, human-computer hybrids, networked together to form vast planetary brains. Then you'll see some computing power, by God. Then the mysteries of extra-dimensionality will be less hard to understand. And after we manage to connect the planetary brains across space, and time, perhaps after we solve the riddle of the speed of light (why is it that this arbitrary maximum speed is fixed?), then we will have transcended the spacetime limitation, perhaps crossing a threshold into additional dimensions, maybe the place (or maybe it's more correct to say the anti-place) where black holes empty into, maybe where...who knows what? Maybe into the mind of God, where we are now. We're back to where we started, because we will have never left.
Short of God's awareness, I have purposes (not the least of which is physical survival; but this is too mundane to consider here) that enable me to go on to this higher level work, "God's work." Personal expression (of which this advanced expression is a part, the better part), specifically writing (but there are others areas, which I have not pursued for a long time now, music, art, etc.), is an area I have chosen for the focus of my work on earth. This lower level, personally-concerned work is important to me, but I will realize, after I will have been continually sidetracked, distracted by the life I lead and then becoming drawn back to it after significant amounts of time away, that this higher aspect, this cosmological consideration, is most important, the apex of human thought. I chastise myself for having allowed myself to drift; but what can I do? I am human, after all. I have as many blind spots as any other individual.
Am I crazy, then, to try to debunk the myths, as my supposed friends have said of me? Perhaps. Why do I bother with this pursuit of that which cannot be known? Because when I do anything else, I am less fulfilled. I am always getting into trouble with my friends, who think I am faux-advanced. And the situiation is even worse with people who are less than friends, mere acquaintances.
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