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Processing the Past This belated posting, a bagatelle from the wandering musings of my idle brain, was originally a poem that I couldn't make work at all, not even poorly enough to include in my 'bad poetry' section; so I converted it into prose.

Matters for Debate I'm not holding my breath.

I Should Do a Lot of Things Fuck every other potentially callous person in the future who will have the audacity to want to borrow a book from me.

The Content of the Zeitgeist More story preoccupation.

Brief Summary I'm in need of remedial action.

Further Insulation Or is that isolation?

Life is Cyclical. So who didn't know that already?

Two Film Reviews A Man Alone, Jerry Maguire

A Pinch To Grow An Inch A punch to grow a bunch.

In A Pinch It's a complex matter, life and mind.

An Old Purpose, Revitalized Stories are the essence of being human.

Lost and Searching for a Purpose I'm done, and I only just started.

Existing Doing the bare minimum.

Eight Film Blurbs Flight of the Navigator, Walking Shadow, See Spot Run, Yesterday's Target, Save the Last Dance, A Promise to Keep, Before Sunrise, Follow the River

Inklings of Identity Stirred up by wayward winds.

Ineffective People And the people they victimize.

Old Timers with Alzheimer's Are they mentally with us?

The Proper Way To Live They're not loyal to their employees, are they?

An Isolated Tidal Pool How I'm supposed to be living my life.

Atkins The price I have to pay for overindulgence.

Six Film Blurbs Marine Life, Skylark, Invisible Child, Quadrille, Missing Pieces, The Three Stooges

I Hate Bugs Will it be soon enough?

The End of the Christian Era "Cleavage, cleavage, eyes and hips, from the nape of her neck to her lipstick lips. "

Subsistence Writing I've got maggots on the brain.

What a Waste Another day in the same old life.

Three Film Blurbs The Gingerbread Man, Any Given Sunday, Scenes from a Mall

Peace and Harmony This is supposed to be an ideal, but when I happen to stumble across it, I'm beside myself looking for ways to stir things up.

A Book Review The Dragons of Eden by Carl Sagan.

Security is a Terrible Thing to Waste A dream interpretation with a lot of holes in it.

A False Start Yet another distraction.

A Film Review Mystery Woman

More Whether Weather I wonder what that means.

A Controversial Subject Get out your dictionaries and your law books before you challenge me on this one.

Less Significant Ordeals The inevitability of death and the unpredictability of the weather.

A Forlorn Morn What else could it be but a ponte?

A Different Kind of Diversion Maybe it's the same thing.

Pretense and Commitment An undercurrent exists, seldom stated, among the workers: the "good attitude" they (try to) maintain is a lie.

World War Three A late journal addition. I was going to use this piece to start a new pastiche; but I just don't feel like developing it.

It's Summer, Stupid I can't help it. It's the season, folks.

We're Ridiculous And we can't help it.

The Story of His Life A short story

Protect Yourself Why not do it now with a vote before you end up having to do it with a gun?

Three Film Blurbs The Maker, The Big Green, The Roman Spring of Mrs. Stone.

Film Review Cohen and Tate.

Peace and Locusts They chose the wrong metaphor for their identity.

A Positive Unintended Consequence All activity directed against a specific example of entropy is generalizable to some degree to the larger context.

The Pattern A project that took all evening and late into the night.

Developing Projects Various odii, literal and metaphoric.

Project Completion I just love summers.

Flies, Maggots, and Rotting Carcasses Living in the wilds of suburbia can be an uncertain existence.

Nothing's Perfect Being a long-winded explicative of the unsettling effect of changing seasons.

The Fifth Protocol A little bit of motivation.

Sidetracked A day that fizzled out.

Two Film Reviews Escape to Witch Mountain and The Fourth Protocol

Neighborhood Reverie You can't always get what you want, but who needs this sticky shit?

Affectively Thinking Balancing a life of thought, feeling, and activity.

Daylight at Night Sometimes I awaken to an awareness that life is far more profound than I normally experience.

Knowledge Generally Continues On Contemplations on the nature of (my) life.

Film Review Storm of the Century

Realizing The Connection Between Two Worlds I don't want to work that hard right now.

Dangerous Elements Ancient brain generalization.

Film Blurb Return to Snowy River.

A God Of Sorts It took me a long time to get over that experience.

A "No-Editor" Opportunity It's time to get serious about my work, again.

An Excuse If you don't talk much, when you have something important to say, people tend to pay closer attention.

Perfidious memories A bar-b-que for one in the middle of suburbia.

Strange We are a nation of bug and crap eaters.

Nothing To Report Temperate temperatures temper tempers.

Eulogy Guilt Prevails.

Spamming Spammers Don't come down on me for having developed a strategy to combat the very thing that you're complaining about in the first place.

Important Things To Accomplish A mutual condition of the human soul that we all struggle with each and every day that we remain together.

Special Arrangements A fractal dream-brain image.

A Token Riposte This continuing repartee with my physiology is wearing me down.

Proud To Be An American Where else can someone like Roseanne get a tv development deal?

Old Business Cards I can't remember why I decided to post these a month ago; but the idea is in my journal, so...

Original Intent A new introduction to my thoughthistory journal.

A Very Short Addition to a developing novel I all but abandoned years ago. At this rate, I'm going to finish this thing in about 2057.

The Ubiquitous Nanny/Buddy/Companion One-way relationships with people I don't know.

A Realistic Self-Image What if you saw yourself every single day cast in plaster and standing against a wall in your house?

Two Film Blurbs The Rockford Files: Punishment and Crime, One Against The Wind

Uncertain Incalculability I want to change, but I want to stay the same.

A Further Extension of How I Reflect My World The format is afterthought; the writing is existence.

Artificial Time Maybe it's time to make a change.

Take a Letter, jai Don't want to get ahead of myself here.

Dreaming I'm Awake I may be going crazy, but I'm still sane enough to realize it.

More Newsbabes Pics Someday I'm going finish this page.

This is My Cathedral Establishing a positive karma.

Postcard from Paradise Contrariness for its own sake.

Mixing Metaphors Life is my addiction and words are my fix.

Something Very Different To Say The discrepancy between the vision and the finished product.

Shopping Day Finds at Big Lots And cosmic radiation.

Film Review The Warden of Red Rock.

Coding and Editing Life Strange.

My Old Dog Slim What are dreams for anyway, if not for contacting the dead?

Untangling the Twisted Growth An expression of my love of plants.

Don't Nobody Worry 'Bout Me Physicality is a highly overrated Perspective.

A Great Cosmic I/O Device More bad poetry. You'd think I'd learn how to do it by now.

Manic Maintenance Balancing productivity against health concerns.

Sleep. It's Not Just For Kids Any more. It's a lot more complicated than a simple sleep/awake pattern.

Run That Body Down I'm not a kid any more.

The Id Factor As usual I went too far in the other direction.

Sage Advice If it's all a matter of stimulation of the lower brain functions, then we might as well be lizards.

The Entropy of Repressive and Unresponsive Government You'd think that the human race, as intelligent as it's supposed to be, would have come up with a solution by now.

Resisting the Resisitance Separated, we are lost.

An Expertise at Living Well Peace and contentment on the patio.

False Standards My lack of motivation allows them to erode away.

Good Hair Day Bad dream night.

Trying to Fit a Square News Format into a Round Story with a Gonzo Hammer It's just doesn't seem so important any more that I be so accurately understood.

A Film Review Love Comes Softly

Seven Film Blurbs Session 9, Hard Ground, Murder Is Easy, Gunfighter's Moon, Sister Street Fighter, Jade, Saving Grace

Other Formats And then some music, I think.

Hair of the Dog Stuff A tired, almost foul, mood I've been in.

Help!! "...enamel clocks are ticking..."

Perfect Metaphor Fiction writing v. verbal abuse.

Five Film Blurbs Thin Air, Dead Man's Walk, Howling II, Take the Money and Run, The Love Letter

A Business Proposition If they don't want me to watch their channels, they should keep their signals off my system.

A Place Where I Belong It works!

Medieval in LA A book review.

Six Film Blurbs Don't Be a Menace to South Central while Drinking your Juice in the Hood, Spenser: The Judas Goat, The Sixth Day, From Dusk Till Dawn, The Rockford Files: Friends and Foul Play, Best Defense

Ye Olde Junque Shoppe Okay. Here it is. It's taken quite a while to realize this fantasy, if only digitally. But it's a starting point, I guess. I can develop the imagery, if not the actual place. And who knows? Maybe somebody will buy something from me.

Independence Time to go to bed and wait out this period of cosmic turmoil.

Productivity If you persist long enough, you will always eventually find a way to turn your neuroses into meaningful activity.

Unity Another poem.

I Wish A short poem.

Timothy Leary's Dead Addendum to a previous entry.

Dreams I finalized the intro to the dreams journal. It took a while, but... I don't know if I'll continue adding material to this subdirectory or not. Recently I've been including all my dreams in my thoughthistory journal or else working them into fiction. We'll see.

Down and Dirty Disturbing dreams, extreme lethargy, and Gonzo electricity.

Suckholes When did I become so goddam upright?

Mania Waxes, but Motivation Wanes I sometimes have problems finishing things.

Like a Dwarf on a Basketball Team I want to believe that I'm cool too.

Winging My Way Through Life Visual art has always been a motive that has more or less eluded me.

Developing the Past I will not substantially change, as far as I will know, from this time on.

Piracy v. Privacy Freedom from federal influence can be a good thing sometimes.

Deconstructing Democracy: American Mythology A New Department. I've been putting off publishing this because I didn't have the banner for it, nor did I feel like making it.

My Reporting As it turns out, I'm a Gonzo journalist--of a sort.

Having It Both Ways I guess you can't get around human nature.

Time To Change My life has been one of big swings in opposite directions.

Everything is Back to Normal Yeah. As if it I ever was.

Dead Fish and Short Story Appropriate burials for each.

Midsummer's Eve Better than Shakespeare.

Stories are Stories and Art is Art or E.B White is Turning over in his Grave. A new genre, essays, added to this website--as if everything else I write is something different.

Get Over It, Whatever It Is There are no victims, only bad choices.

A Hyperbolic Eternity I've got to start being good.

A Lot of Coloration Just wait. You'll see.

Up There Another Poem.

i am, now, nobody A Poem.

Art and the Zen of Television Reception I'm living in a whole new world now.

Real Control I have a method that works to keep me relatively sane, and reality at bay.

12 Film Blurbs Career Opportunities, The Muse, Crime and Punishment in Suburbia, Vampire's Kiss, Insomnia, Spenser: Pale Kings and Princes, 28 Days, Amistad, Journey, Lost Angels, Rose Hill, Moonlight and Valentino

I Listen The world of self-expression is a bigger ocean.

Is There Life After Drugs and Cable? Part 2 - three hits later.

The Shipping News A film review

Ten Film Blurbs The Lover, Polish Wedding, Sidewalks of New York, True Blue, On The Line, Rambling Rose, Little Nicky, X-Men, Five Corners, Super Mario Brothers

Is There Life After Drugs and Cable? Part 2 - three hits later.

Is There Life After Drugs and Cable? Part 1 - tv withdrawal.

C'est La Vie I don't believe in punishment for your "sins," except for here on earth.

A Daily Purpose is an Illusion Today I got an attitude back that I've been missing for a long time.

Ideas Flow Like Tree Sap My physical existence is composed of old ideas.

Beef and Booze Two out of three ain't bad.

Fuck That Man! As is typical, I've gone way overboard again.

Depression is a Bitch He says it's kind of difficult to get any "lovin' " when there's someone sleeping on your couch.

Waiting Hasn't Been When patience will not turn the time around.

The Old Boy's Club I'm feeling very conflicted.

Understanding Sex But misunderstanding grammar

Odd Transition Notes Today it rained.

Inventing Causes Why I feel the way I do--not. Another addition to an old pastiche from old journal.

Isolation Some old lame line prose.

The Seething Social Organism Which is the illusion, the waking or the dream?

Another Illusion I am an expert at the construction of my personality.

Film as Literature Dialogue as a central focus.

My Basic Motive as measured against the easy publication access of the Internet.

Real and Artificial Selves A proem.

counterpoint Another poem.

Nocturnal Nature A poem.

Trying To Focus Motivation is so difficult.

Hot-Shot Pilot? Being famous for something is maybe not so "cracked up" as it's supposed to be.

You Never Know Until you do.

Via Our Doubts and Fears The secret of self-esteem.

Someone To Watch Over Me An addition to 'Personals,' a pastiche that I began two and a half years ago, but never finished.

Success Another old entry. Bit by bit I'm catching up.

Wax Off/Wax On An old journal entry. I'm backtracking.

My Past and Future Self It's my life and I'll do what I want.

miniviews A new department

A Film Review American Me

Eight Film Blurbs The Ghost and Mr. Chicken, The Specialist, The Deep End of the Ocean, Ricochet, The Amateur, Phenomenon, Men of Honor, Dungeons and Dragons

A Film Review J.A. Martin, Photographe

Uncommitment and the Instinctual Response of Parenthood Women will enter into relationships with men who resist commitment, even when having been forewarned by the men that they will not want to go beyond a certain point.

Free Postview Weekend Before I finally go cold turkey.

Second Childhood Feeling very antsy and dis-oriented.

I've been bought before Weaning myself a bit farther away from the corporate monoculture.

Future Devastation? An old journal entry that is just as true today.

A Lot of As-Long-As's It really gets the seratonin flowing.

A Matter of Principle Testing a state of mind against reality.

A Less-Than-Perfect Zen Detachment I am a phenomenologist, after all, in theory and in practice.

Experiments In Self-Definition. Or struggling to catch up again.

Waiting Is A valuable Zen practice.

Zen, Baby The mystery of ordinary experience.

Terse and Non-Descript Anything, anything, is better, by far, than all of this continuing doubt.

The Dullest Blog in the World Dogs, kids, and other animals.

The National Arbor Day Foundation A new wall of trees for Christmas Future.

A Failed Attempt Up all night again.

Resisting the idea I just want to go to bed.

It's Who I Am What I say is my therapy.

Complaining About Men Isn't that what you want?

Yardwork, Donuts, and a DOS Word Processor. What to do when your brain locks up from insufficient RAM.

At-One-Ment Fuck the saints of the world, and fuck the devil too.

The Camel's Hump Feeling skittish and getting increasingly more so every day.

An Internal Atmosphere Chipping away at old journals.

A New Diet Fad Life is precariously quirky.

Cyber Insecurity I think I'll go back to using PayPal.

Breakdown A remnant of childhood experience.

The Rites of Spring "Call the police. I don't care."

A Gray, Damp Day I slept through most of it.

The Friends I Haven't Met They're all still out there somewhere.

Outside of the Main Domain The future of my work.

Ah, The Irony I didn't know for a long time that I was a postmodernist, or even what a postmodernist was.

Journal Work, Free Donuts, and some Blasphemy It's a self-image thing, y'know?

Becoming I never wanted to be a man.

It's a Free Universe Or, Steal This Software.

How The Caterpillar Feels Sort of a poem.

Accomplishment and Laze How I am like and unlike Benny Hill.

Inside An old journal entry, and the start of a new pastiche.

Mismanagement Petty shit in the business world.

Intransigence, or It Does Not Pay To Be Too Hip Geeks used to be so cool. What happened? I fight conformity, every step of the way. Plus, laptop episodes and a visit with my ex. Much (all?) of what we call psychic phenomena is merely reality-testing.

The Seven Pillars of Wisdom A book review.

Plastic Porch Furniture I'm turning into a real suburbanite here.

Really, Really Bored Thinking about plastic grass and how the mind works.

Grammar Rules Grammar doesn't rule, it dictates.

Comparison Narcissism on the loose.

Pat's Old World Order A global government is inevitable.

Missing Summer I look forward to it so much.

Berserk A film review.

Shutting Down The fall after the pride.

Two Theories of Angels Some minor conjectural fantasy.

Great Day And it's only six o'clock.

Easter Day An accident, conversation, a ten-speed, and free weights.

Avoiding a Strictly Scientific Mindset Ephemera and bass wave permeations.

Social Anxiety I hadn't intended to write so much.

No Vampires Here Avoiding cutting down the garlic.

Rearranging I can afford a little bit of buzzy luxury once in a while.

Siesta Time And a few hours sleep at dawn.

A Cheap Laptop Going WiFi soon.

It's Just A Feeling And them old feelings is only in your head...er...I mean... Oh, never mind.

Compromising Thoughts What if I complained about what they do?

Dead Tree A double haiku, my favorite form.

Procrastination I could just do it all myself.

This Problem Didn't Just Happen Rewiring and a New World Order.

Electrical Problems "The ghost of 'lectricity howls in the bones of her face." [That doesn't apply to anything I've written; I just like it.]

Agreeing with O'Reilly It makes me think there's something wrong with me.

And Then There Are The Chinese Internationalism is being beaten down once again.

Can't Turn It Off Motivated.

Still More Film Blurbs Ruby Jean and Joe, The Animal, Caravans, The Borrower, Life Stinks, Croupier, Primal Secrets, Tea With Mussolini, Curtain Call, The Perfect you, Homicide, Bodily Harm, Othello, Double Take, Return of the Living Dead, Anywhere But Here

Stories It just so happens that mine are about my favorite person.

12 More Film Blurbs The Perfect Storm, Bastard Out Of Carolina, Whipped, Damnation Alley, Le Petit Ceil, All I Wanna Do, Loser, Break Up, Siringo, Battlefield Earth, Zelig, One Night At McCool's

Embedded You're outta there, pal.

Daddy's Widdle Boy Is it time to pay the price? Not Just yet.

Maybe I'm Too Old It's the end of the world (as we know it)...

Winona, a retrospective A new short story.

Word of Knowledge Don't believe anything.

20 Film Blurbs Earth Girls Are Easy, The Chamber, No Deposit No Return, Passenger 57, Fair Game, Under Seige, The Family Man, America's Sweethearts, Jane Doe, Girl Interrupted, Mona Lisa, The Musketeer, End of Day, Rush Hour 2, Get Carter, The Pentagon Papers, Chambre � Part, Loch Ness, Retroactive, The Echo of Thunder

Now He Knows How would people take it if you died?

Having Doubts which usually dissipate in the light of actual work.

Alcoholism Is it really a disease?

A Case of Cabin Fever A minimal amount of work.

Despite the Cost The stock market continues to drop over the uncertainty of war with Iraq.

Bill O'Reilly's Roommate? I got enough ego trips going for me already that I'm trying to deconstruct.

What's Going On? A wall-beating-mit-dem-kopf kind of day.

Bleeding Heart Conservatives? What happened to the news?

People Are So Not Free It's a state of mind.

Worked All NIght My sleep/wake cycle is all fucked up again.

Enough About the War, Already The only thing that makes sense any more.

Heading Off in a different direction.

Spending Time Too many things to do that are getting in the way of doing all of the other things I'd rather not be doing.

I Feel Your Pain A scientific basis for transference.

Underdog/Victim Role Pushing north to Baghdad.

Hey! Wake Up! Get a job on cable news narrating the war.

You Can Be Too Sensitive There's a lot to be said for narcissism when it comes to mental health.

More of the Same The evil part of ourselves.

Free Mook! When it comes to people's private property, look out.

Two Days. Two Phone Calls My own sense of clarity: not at all what he means.

We're Caught in a Trap The bad times they create that result in their demise.

Maintaining Back in semi-circulation again.

A Random Thought The other way around?

Want To be who I am.

Need I expect to get by with less.

Emergency! Just so much media hype.

Such a Waste I'm a person, not a species.

Burn It Down All I do is dream any more.

Rundown A manic state that I wasn't attending to.

Nothing The current state of my mind.

Crashing to a Standstill Old pathologies never die. They just get twisted around.

I Respond Living in harmony with the cosmos is not an easy thing to do when you're human.

The Bomber Death Planes When will we finally come to our senses?

Topics Whose Time Has Come Waiting for the motivation to get back to work.

Internet File Trading Will it be the death of postmodernism?

Doing Something Else God likes to have Its little joke.

Struggling to maintain a positive opinion.

Occasional Transference Is mimicking illness itself an illness?

Pain Manipulations, weaknesses, theories, transferences, pathology, analysis, and interpretation. This is a long one.

In the Middle of the Night I'm beginning to get suspicious about a lot of things.

An Ongoing Art Project The inevitable ravages of time and psychology.

A Hypocritical Stance I watch with interest as the world plays out its evil, violent, and/or mercenary/pecuniary scripts. It's good entertainment.

The Whole Picture A Difficult Interpretation.

Never, Never, Never Is there a pointer to repression in that rhetoric?

A Summary Of My New Year A compromise I no longer want to make.

I Need A Woman Bad Or do I mean I need a bad woman?

Pissed Again It takes so much to make insights stick.

Objective News How Quaint.

The Subconscious and Unconscious Entity I Am A statement of psychic existence.

What Is It Good For? Hollywood could produce a better war.

15 New Film Blurbs Taken, At Close Range, Beyond The Mat, That's The Way I Like It, The Caveman's Valentie, The Good Wife, Kotch, Josie and the Pussycats, Coyote Ugly, Most Wanted, Volcano, The Patriot, The Art of War, Uncommon Valor, The Uninvited

Intolerance Cà et là

Yard Work Again The joys of spring give way to thoughts of summer work.

I Can't Win I mean, I can't lose.

A Stupid Idea What if someone else was you.

Color-Coded Americans Just in case a real threat comes along.

A Bit Above His Head The New World Order all over again.

Baby Driver A book review.

The Deconstruction of the Self My periodic reassessment of why I am here.

The Years Roll By And there's still next year, and the next...

Going with the Flow A bad flow is better than no flow at all.

Don't Call Me I'm always rebelling against any kind of social order.

Some Sub- or Semi-Conscious Level I find myself continually redefining myself.

Falling into Pastiches A loss of the desire to write.

The Dichotomy "You are either for us or against us."

A Matter of Degrees At least I won't miss Seinfeld.

Phone Etiquette Playing games with customer service reps.

A Small Package Normality comes that way sometimes.

Tomorrow When things get difficult, you have to resort to silly little things to pick up your spirits.

I Wish I were in Arizona. The gods of electronics and other church-related phantasms.

Typical Reaction I hate when that happens.

Usual Xmas Stuff Gandalf rises again.

Which Am I? Waiting for answers and invitations.

Putting in the Time Short summaries of two long, slow days.

Merry Fucking Christmas On the first day of the winter solstice...

You Attack Yourself I see the collective breaking up all the time.

A Nothing Kind of Day Hey. They happen.

Handling Security Issues Why I don't have kids.

Life Is For Learning (the same things, again and again).

New Neighbors At least it's not Charles Manson.

An Old Goal The pastiche format.

It Is Winter, After All Unmotivated.

Whatever It Is I Am. I can be nothing else.

Feeding the Fire It doesn't take much to get me through the winter.

Guinivere A film review

Shopping For Presents (for myself).

SAD and Repressed What a great device the ego is.

Convergence Three aspects of my life--work, computing, and house maintenance--all coming together under one theme: organization.

Not Very Far Maybe I'm too sensitive to criticism sometimes.

Another Schizoid Orientation I work hard and hurt my back so that I can't work so hard.

A Sudden Fit of Ambition Zen and the art of planning and scheduling.

The Alien A Poem. Not so good, but it has good line sense.

Always Connected It's a nice metaphor.

The Disenfranchisement of Men An inherent species flaw.

Cocoon You might think it's a poem, but it's not.

Amateurs Who Sit in Judgment Judging the Department of Justice.

Logical Categories Back and forth.

Existing I think I have too many computers.

I Celebrate Myself Success is in the eye of the beholder.

Strange Domestic Feeling A dreamy kind of day.

Token Progress Token link. Token life.

Anger Management Repression is a terrible thing to waste.

Fitful Biorhythms Just another step or two in the midst of dreaming and awakening.

Waiting And not feeling up to it.

No Real Business Left I am so glad to be out of that daily grind.

Roping Me In It doesn't pay to be too literate.

Avocationally Speaking Revisionist history running amok.

Whatever There are certain things I must do daily?

I'm On A Roll A computer crash could wipe me out.

An Electrical Daymare The organization goes on, and on, and on...

28 Film Blurbs Please Don't Eat the Daisies, and on, and on, and on... Catching up.

A Reality Split It's not as real as everyone thinks it is.

Getting Back to Normal Two days (29th/30th) of household chores.

Family Matters I'm so Thankful I'm not like them.

I Think, Therefore I Am... ...Happy.

Fighting Entropy Function is more important than appearance.

A Comfortable Lazy Feeling Giving in to a vice can lead to its polar opposite.

A Developing Pattern Two whole days (23rd & 24th). I hope it lasts.

The Most Demanding Boss of All Caution re my old self.

Approaching Neighbors How I tend to keep people at a distance.

Earning Money And gaining experience.

A Totally Unconscious Life Sarcasm gone astray.

Snow Balls and Walking Home Ah, to be a teenager again.

without, death A poem.

Violent Faith Yet another example of denial and projection.

If not now, when? The importance of being purposeful.

Journal Work as Therapy This is where I start to include my therapy stuff in the main journal instead of abstracting it into a separate series of documents.

Where's the Diversity? A rare ideal day.

An Occasional Fantasy Living like a normal human being.

False Starts 3 days (11th thru 13th) of a reluctance to go to work.

Adjusting A very unproductive day.

Free Buns, a Fire, and Pizza The symbolism is pathetic.

Two Mini-Movies Watch Lost Love first, before Distant Encounter, because if you watch the latter first, you may not want to watch the former. (The latter is silly, whereas the former is most serious.)

Sometimes An interview.

When I Will Not Go Out Returning home from work in order to survive.

Cleaning Out The House All this and asynchronicity too.

Brief Weak Will Giving in to temptation.

On The Run? Many people feel similarly to me.

An idle Dream Thoughts on being a pacifist.

Let It Happen Sometimes I get so maudlin.

Turn The Other Cheek What ever happened to ideals?

Futuristic SciFi Machine Mood lighting for the sleepless.

Electronica Preserving life's moments digitally.

An Article of Faith Heritage is a disingenuous affair.

Our Limited Illusions Symbols of the collective process.

Inextricable Warmongering made easy.

Isolated and Alone I think.

Le Petit Ceil A direct line to God.

A Capricious God A bit of blasphemy.

In My Small Way Pouting ruminations on The Collective

Step-By-Step Development I almost feel normal again.

A Strange Deep Comlpex Nostalgia Searching for the adequate female.

What Life Is Really All About Further adventures in home organization and maintenance.

Shake It Up A lesson learned.

Up Out of the Nether World And into an ether of suspension of disbelief.

Cozy Warm Inside A different kind of appreciation.

A More Permanent Situation Getting back on track after years of neglect.

A Big Improvement Undoing what originally seemed to be a good idea.

Is This Therapy? Switching back into detachment mode.

Sore Muscles/Shaky Legs Getting back to my old self.

Screwed Up Karma? It wouldn't surprise me at all.

Memories of Pathology Which is better, the present or the past?

The Logic of the Opposite Position War is stupid and nationalism is a deception.

Agile Young Minds Genetic v. environmental causes of lesbianism.

A Trivial Pursuit No one has any more sense than anybody else.

Dead-Ends What's the point of vacationing if you don't do something different?

Adventures in Vacationing My mundane life, taken on the road.

The Middle of Nowhere Going on vacation.