10-15-1
These are my first posts since the WTC attack. My ISP service to my local area was a victim, first of an actual connection loss, then later, of a path (phone service) provider going out of business. Actually, I'm still not reconnected. I'm at the library posting this. Fortunately, during most of this "time of testing," I've still had email service. Unfortunately, in a separate terrorist effect, my mailing list is also (permanently) down, so I've been thoroughly network-incommunicado. I'll be looking for a new mailing list service and hope to be back in business soon. The "new look" of this site is actually a recombination of all of my old sites into one, something I'd been planning to do for a long time but never got around to until my net connection went away, leaving me with lots of extra time. (Some good always results from every evil act. One side breeds the other, otherwise, without contrast, we could not perceive a difference nor be motivated to change. Even the labels 'good' and 'evil' are relative. Ask a non-American Arab.)]
10-10-1
I would have gotten this new site up sooner, but my ISP has been screwing up. I haven't been able to get onto it for a week, and before that, I'd been having trouble off and on.
9-6-1
Beware of Scumware: A long time ago I downloaded Gator, realized the mistake I'd made, and deleted it from my system (which was not all that easy a thing to do). Now, I'm much more wary of downloads. Just because it seems to be a mainstream product no longer qualifies it as safe. Apparently, there are an increasing number of program downloads designed to do far more than their stated purpose. I'm not talking about the simple spyware programs here. Programs that monitor your Internet usage seem kind of tame now by comparison. I'm talking about programs like Kazaa and Toptext and even MS's SmartTags Great article here.
8-29-1b
If you can read this, you're pretty hip.
8-14
Traffic to my website is like sex: it comes in spurts.
8-8-1
No one's been e-mailing me lately. I'm feeling so rejected. :( Is it something I said?
7-28-1
You think you know someone, but do you, really? How long do you have to know someone before you really know them? You may think you get to know me via this site, but you never know anyone until you have sampled the widest variety of their work and being, and even then, nothing is ever guaranteed. This site changes to better realize my vision of who I am. Changes may be small. Additions vary the overall vision. Unless you know it all, and more, you do not know me. I struggle with this perception occasionally: people know me superficially, and depending upon how they know me, from which source(s), they may (and probably do) not know the real me. This site is a long-term attempt to present to the public my whole self--an impossible task; so I settle for as wide a variety of my self as possible. We always fail to realize our real self in public. The public has its own prejudiced way of deciding who we are. What am I saying? Unless you've read everything on this website, you do not know me, alas. Everything is modified by everything that's gone before it.
7-3-1
What I like most about receiving e-mail from people who read what I've written is when they ask me what I mean when I've used a certain phrase that seems out of place, or when they point out what they think is incorrect grammar or usage. I love to explain why I wrote it exactly the way I did---if it wasn't actually only a mistake.
6-28-1a
Most of the time, I really don't know what I'm talking about. But I always think I do. This is why I write. Re-reading what I've written gives me time to consider what I've said, so that I may change it before anyone else reads it. A lot of the stuff in this textbox, for example, is ill-considered. I leave it all in here (for now) because I like the spontaneity it imparts. I'd rather be thought a babbling fool than an anal-retentive straight--although I worry that the latter is closer to the truth.
6-14-1
Because none of you who e-mail me seem to want me to post your messages to my guestbook, and because Homestead is planning to cut back my free webspace, I've discontinued it. I'm thinking about setting up a separate site where I can post my (for the public) correspondence, but... Like writing projects, I have a lot of websites planned. I'll never get around to them all.
Since it's still relatively small, I'm maintaining my mailing list via a computer-based program. That leaves the problem of how to sign-up new list members. Anyone know of a good program or javascript that doesn't require an SSI?
6-13-1
Well, I finally got the odd color combinations fixed. At last.
6-12-1
Major changes are coming, maybe. Homestead is cutting back on its free service. What will be the outcome for this site? Wait and see.
5-27-1
Once again, I have become completely disenchanted with my artistic expression. Once again, I resist the urge to tear this website down. See studio\note #5.
5-11-1
Posted to site: prologue from my most recent novel and my (but not publisher's, because they won't allow me to change it) e-book cover; excerpts from my 1995 novel Reservations; link to an old ePosse Review article; lots of misc. notes tucked away here and there.
4-11-1
If you sign the GuestBook, it may take me a few days, or even weeks, to get the message posted. I'm still having problems with the input. I'm getting it all now, but it's not sequential and I have to do a lot of cutting, pasting, and coding. It'd be a lot simpler to use the standard Guestbook that Homestead provides, but I like to be able to exclude inappropriate comments without deleting the whole guestbook and starting over. I hope to get a lot of the past entries posted soon, and also some of the entries from my old websites.
3-16-1
The e-mail form on the contact page is fixed and functioning. I'm now receiving all of the information entered into the boxes. Sorry for the inconvenience to those of you who had to rewrite me after I responded to your blank e-mails--and to those of you who didn't because I didn't even get your addresses, or who never bothered to answer. Please write again. (The real inconvenience is to me. I missed a number of people who might have become friends. So many mysterious strangers we ALMOST contact throughout our lives!)
3-8-1
I took the .wav file off the "life stories" page because several people e-mailed me to tell me it was "irritatating" (sic), "self-serving" (of course), "demeaning" (I presume she meant to me), and "beneath me" (how would she know?) And then I got an e-mail wherein a guy complained about its removal. He said it was the best thing about the site. (That doesn't say much for my work, does it?) So, maybe I'll put it back up as an option. The biggest complaint was that it couldn't be turned off and it played through the visit to my page at my (ex) publisher's site. Honey, that's what the stop button on your browser is for.
2-29-1
I'm working on the e-mail form on the contact page. It's not defaulting to my e-mail address, nor is it including the info in some of the form boxes. Meanwhile, if you want to write to me (and I really wish you would), click on my e-mail address instead.
2-28-1b
The "menu" on the cover page is redundant for those of you who have browsers capable of supporting frames. And you don't have to click on it on any of the other pages either to return, because the menu remains at the left, no matter what page you're on. I set it up this way for the benefit of those unfortunate retros who are still using old browsers, so that they won't get error messages.
2-25-1
The color combinations are a little odd, now that I added frames to the site. I'm going to have to fix this one day. (Visitors using browsers incapable of viewing frames are not going to understand this message.)
2-10-1
I begin to get depressed when I surf the net and find all of the great sites and consider my site in comparison. I am motivated to make mine better, but there is so much to learn and so much work to do before I will accomplish this--and so many other things to do besides--that I think I will never get back to site reconstruction.
1-29-1
I never like how I appear on a website, the personna I end up presenting. This is why I keep tearing my sites apart and rebuilding them. I always think, after the initial rush of desire to communicate has passed, that I have said too much. This has nothing to do with websites per se; it has to do with me. I'm this same way in "real" life. (It's really not all that real, is it.) I often regret having communicated. This is why I write: to hedge myself against personal contact. (You can revise many times before presenting written words to the public.) This is deep psychology. No one ever thinks of me in this way (until now, that is--now that I've revealed it.) I compensate very well, so that I appear to be a sociable person. But we all do this. It's just that I happen to worry about it consciously. I'll probably end up deleting this message. I've become too personal again.
1-21-1
Hi. I'm back. Had a lot of personal/career problems/crises I had to take care of and couldn't find the time/motivation to work on the websites. (This happens every winter: seasonal affective disorder.) Thanks to those of you who bought my latest book, whoever you are. Let me hear from you. Send me an e-mail and tell me what you thought of it. I'd like that.
As for the old websites, I don't like them, so I'm reconstructing them (again). Meanwhile...
This site is still weak. Haven't had the time or energy to... [yawn]